The Flu

Yup, I have the flu. I was sick in bed all day yesterday with a fever of 102.5, completely achy all over. Although part of me wonders if this is the leftovers from my battle with the demon the other night..... :)

Guess I am now a believer in the flu shot anyway.

Freak Out.

Have you ever woke up in the middle of the night and feel totally absolutely freaked out? To the point where you are wretching and dry heaving like you just saw a horrible murder scene in person? I cannot even put into words the feeling I woke up to last night. Pure terror? Total loss of reality? Those might start to describe it.

This has happened before. Seems like once every year or 2 I wake up feeling like this. And each time it seems worse. I can only assume I had a nightmare, but I recall absolutely nothing. I turned on the TV and hugged my dog just to try to get a grip on reality. It took at least a good 10 minutes before I felt like I wasn't in some sort of mental hell. It is roughly 19 hours later that I write this, and I still don't feel right. It was freaking disturbing!

I think the last time this happened I thought I remembered thinking I accidentally killed somebody.... but I have no recollection of any dream this time. I was actually wondering earlier today if I was possibly being attacked by a demon trying to take me over or something. Yes, I am definitely freaked out.

I haven't been sleeping well at all lately, and am very run down. I also have a cold or flu. I can only assume this had something to do with it.... I am sort of scared to go to sleep tonight. I really felt like I could have done something totally insane when I awoke in that state last night. Like run and jumped through a window or something (Thankfully, I live in a ranch home!). I felt like I had no ability to reasonably think about anything. I just couldn't settle myself. Weird. I guess unless you have experienced something similar, you wouldn't understand what I am talking about, how truly disturbing it was.

McCain is More Of The Same

Read This!

Wow.

Insanity

Politics

I am so tired of this stuff.... and we have another 9 months of it....

John McCain appears to be the front runner for the nomination for the republican party. I used to think that McCain was actually a some what reasonable human being (which is saying a lot since he is affiliated with the republican party). Then I saw him on "The Daily Show" last year. That's when I realized he is more of the same brainwashed neo-conservative nonsense we have endured for the past 7 years. This was the first glimpse we had of him believing that the word "timetable" was a dirty word.

I found it comical to listen to him sit there for an hour the other night saying timetable over and over again when debating Romney. Not that I like Romney either, and think it is ridiculous that he denied saying he supported time tables. Think about it this way (which I am sure Romney did, since he has been a successful businessman). When a CEO of a company, or even a good middle manager of a company, has a project to do, aren't there generally time tables for completion of the project? What is wrong with a time table????? Just another tactic to avoid talking about REAL ISSUES. That is what I detest most about this process. They rarely talk about the issues that matter. And when they do, it is so glossed over with no details on how they will fix anything. They all claim they will fix healthcare, dependence on oil, etc. without ever saying in detail how they plan to do it! Drives me crazy!

It seems this is almost becoming reality-TV-like. I expect in a few years it will be: "Survivor: The Republican Primary", and that's how the candidate will get selected.... or maybe "Dancing with the Democrats"....